10JULY7518on of what I suspected—this was C-PTSD. We studied intently. Books

10JULY7517d been too terrified to face finally surfaced. It was clear confirmati

10JULY7515anted them burned. This mirrored clinical findings in trauma research:

10JULY7514urned, she had gathered up all the photos of her dad and told me she w

10JULY7512se is MDMA. My goal was to give her five hours of uninterrupted safety

10JULY7508ng continues, refining neural circuits over time. Jolene had a broken

10JULY7504lp her heal. My working model was this: synaptic pruning isn't a one-

10JULY7493prayers! After the affair ended, I was planning to move into the base

10JULY7491 He did everything I asked. He saved me from my own destruction. This

10JULY7484d me she was not the one He had given me to say, "Well done, good and

10JULY7482 What terrified me was that it made me happy. And then, like Solomon,

10JULY7480 I needed to kill them. Since every "Christian" around me was a liar,

10JULY7478at the beginning: that I needed to be content. That the problem wasn't

10JULY7463r and her family because they had always closed it. I was trapped (so

10JULY7462upposed to stay open, and she broke down—accusing me of rejecting he

10JULY7460t fight was over whether to keep the door cracked open on an electric

10JULY7458ut you were all so stubborn that you couldn't listen. What I realize

10JULY7455 not being humble or repenting, but you were all so stubborn that you

10JULY7450the church to tell the truth—to show you how to find joy beyond the

10JULY7448invest in her so that I can get everything I want from her. Trevor an

10JULY7447ire of a wife, but by embracing that Jolene is my ONLY wife and I can

10JULY7446t wife, and I have no desire she does not meet, not by reducing my des

10JULY7445 me. She is fearless, because she knows she is mine. I have the perfec

10JULY7435protect her, especially from all the lies that threaten her. Be greedy

10JULY7434erience is an investment in the next. Teach her. Train her. Guard and

10JULY7431utes are also a worthless pit. For either vice, there is no return on

10JULY7429wo Witnesses, because I made my wife everything I desire, in every way

10JULY7424llow! If there is desire beyond what is had in bed, it means the husb

10JULY7423 wrong. Your counselors are wrong. FIX THE LIES, and great sex will fo

10JULY7420s of how Christ delights in His Bride. Christian sex is the best sex.

10JULY7417d pleasurable. We love having sex for hours, and we love having sex ev

10JULY7408ct it to God. It is a lie from Allah that we are supposed to look to G

10JULY7403in me. That is not idolatry—it is rationality. The law of identity i

10JULY7398e demon in her—that it reached its fullness. She committed to being

10JULY7387e me, to value what I value. I didn't settle for peace—I fought for

10JULY7382to refuse complacency and fight for joy? What kind of man stands by wh

10JULY7381ut how is it not love to tell your wife the truth? How is it not love

10JULY7378 I finally dared to say this—when I told Jolene something was wrong,

10JULY7376that they actually cause physiological dysfunction—women's bodies sh

10JULY7368ontent with the lack of sex in their marriages. They misuse Philippian

10JULY7365there were about four sexless marriages in the church. But I suspect t

10JULY7363eyed your blind elders instead. You plugged your ears and blocked us o

10JULY7362found the answer. But when the time came, you wouldn't listen. You ob

10JULY7361he great blessings of a thriving marriage. We believed we had finally

10JULY7351my life. Not only this life on Earth, but for all of eternity. And I

10JULY7346 I read a book. I watched a few videos. And I listened to Jonathan. I

10JULY7345stroy the chains. Only truth can shatter deception. So what did I do?

10JULY7337on reality? I had to say to myself constantly: "This feeling is real,

10JULY7335s to those distorted patterns. So you must slow it all down. Challeng

10JULY7334in your mind as negative and threatening. Triggers are simply shortcut