10JULY8547 and closer to the truth. I didn't just try to love her—I set out t

10JULY8544-HT2A agonists, neuroplasticity, and high temperature anneals of the D

10JULY8541sounded. I set out to restore my wife. I employed everything I knew—

10JULY8540what everyone says—I will fix this. I didn't care how impossible it

10JULY8535onship ended. Not by my choice. God tore it away. After that, I was p

10JULY8534ul servant.'" And He answered. Completely. That very week. The relati

10JULY8531llow truth—or betray it for what made me happy? So I cried out: "Do

10JULY8530." The thought tore through me. And I feared my own desire. Would I fo

10JULY8524in years—I felt happy. And that was what terrified me most. That's

10JULY8520s dying inside. Angry that no one would say what was obvious: somethin

10JULY8512y marriage was collapsing. I had been taught that love meant accepting

10JULY8495where He hadn't led. I would not run ahead and expect His calling to c

10JULY8494I didn't want idols. That night, I swore before God: I would never go

10JULY8493worthless idols forfeit the grace that could be theirs." (Jonah 2:8)

10JULY8482thought back: 150 years ago, you didn't "pick" your church. You lived

10JULY8480ace and comfort. I had just covenanted with this church, and I had no

10JULY8479s. I wanted rest. But then I realized: I was making an idol out of pe

10JULY8472 and I visited a church home group and loved it. On our way out, someo

10JULY8470endable, and without meaning. God made his covenant with me in 2015,

10JULY8467t profit is it that we have kept His ordinance, And that we have walk

10JULY8463e over to Satan simply because their pastors told them to. But here's

10JULY8460scratching at their open wounds. All they had to do was search for th

10JULY8459 them. They are accused. They will bleed everywhere. They won't stop

10JULY8457ey said true? Did they do justice? And after hearing the audio record

10JULY8449had, they would have destroyed our marriage and damned her in the proc

10JULY8448we both agree it was best that I never told the pastors. Because if I

10JULY8446ted. I deserved it—but not for the reasons they gave. I had committe

10JULY8445razy thing—for them, at least. It was justice that I was excommunica

10JULY8442Shriveled Shin, another object of nakedness and shame. Quick! Everyone

10JULY8441an blame him for the end of the world as we know it. Pastor Jacob the

10JULY8440 They opened the portal of hell. Jacob Shin prayed for it. Everyone c

10JULY8432with the truth. Who's racing to be part of Table Rock Church now? The

10JULY8430all of it, in the name of church growth, unity, and false peace. Tabl

10JULY8429med a demonic incantation masked in biblical language. And all of it,

10JULY8416argue the incompetence of the executive team you just represented? He

10JULY8414 I was like…Hey, Jason, wasn't your firm, like..., just my lawyer,

10JULY8411went to court and lied under oath to get a restraining order, helped o

10JULY8408to hand him over to Satan." And the vote passed. What's worse? They

10JULY8405 to excommunicate my entire family with "I don't know" as his reason.

10JULY8400 asked that he would be washed clean and forgiven. I do not want him t

10JULY8399nd be forgiven. I knew what God would do to him for his sins, and so I

10JULY8398ristian, I prayed for Travis Peterson. I prayed that he would repent a

10JULY8397xcept three: Jolene, Dan, and Rex. Long ago, when I first became a Ch

10JULY8383 made the church look bad. It might have hurt their image. It might ha

10JULY8382ck Tabor lost his temper and grabbed my mom by the hair, it would have

10JULY8378ed that OCR might have to reverse course. Why was it so controversial

10JULY8374singled out because of my sex. The Minnesota Department of Human Righ

10JULY8366secretly recorded the abuse using a small tape recorder. My mom spent

10JULY8365parents, in shock, immediately drove to Radio Shack and bought one. I

10JULY8361 day, riding in the back seat of the car, I broke down to my parents a